Being The Husband I Always Wanted

When I was a child, I often thought about the day when I would be the happy and proud wife of a man who was honest, trustworthy, respectful, loving and hard-working.  We would never lie to each other, enjoy spending time together, raise our children together and build a life together.

At 35 years of age and with five children who have noone to call 'dad',  I have resigned myself to the fact that this is not how things will ever be for me.  Unfortunately, I have been the one who has worked, provided and cared for myself and my children with little or no help from any 'significant other', much less a husband.

I have realized that I am the husband I always wanted.  I work, pay the bills, strive to provide for everyone's needs and am always finding ways to provide what 'wants' I can, as well.  I love my children unconditionally, am always home when I am not at work and do not find ways to 'escape' out of boredom or restlessness.  I do not lie to anyone, I can be trusted and I am respectful of other people's feelings and values.

Though most days seem to not provide enough hours or energy for me to do all that I want to do, we still manage.

I may not be particularly happy with the way my life has turned out, but I can make the most out of any circumstances that come my way. I have learned that no matter how much you do for someone, you cannot make them do what they are supposed to do unless it comes from within themselves. Thank God, He has given me that gift.

I find it a shame that the men in our time have become such selfish, lazy creatures who have no idea how to be real men. Granted, their are a few exceptions, but they are few and far between. I know many more single moms struggling to be both mother and father, provider and caregiver to their families than I know men who work to support their wives and children.  I know many more men who shirk their responsibilities of paying child support than I do who make it a priority to work enough hours or jobs to support themselves, their new families AND provide for the children they left behind.  I know more men who have spent more on their drug and alcohol habits than they have ever spent on birthday or Christmas presents for their sons and daughters.

Am I bitter... maybe.  Am I disappointed....yes.  But I AM the husband I always wanted to have.

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Looks Like Spring Has Sprung!

It has been a beautiful week so far here in Florida. Today the temps are in the low 80's and the sun is just shining away!

I have been especially busy this week. Went to the flea market on Sunday and though it rained by the end, my daughter Cheyanne made a bit of money selling her old clothes.  Also met some interesting people. We had a crack-head one one side of us hinting around that he had all sorts of illegal drugs for sale besides the stuff he had in his booth and a total redneck on the other side of us who kept us all laughing for six hours. All in all, it was a very interesting day.  We will be going back this weekend. 

Also this weekend, my daughter Cheyanne will be in a parade at our annual Catfish Festival. She is in ROTC.  This will be her first event with them. She's pretty excited.

I'm going to keep this short today, as I do not feel very badly at the moment and need to get caught up on my housework and laundry.

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